I’ve moved!!

Wow tmblr is amazingly idiot proof and user friendly, & it allows me to link my blog, facebook and twitter account together. Talk about WOW!

ok let me unveil it….

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Reasons why i’m into you

I like you because…

1. You’re kind to everyone, especially so with kids.

2. Your ability to turn the most serious topics into light-hearted ones

3. The big smile of yours

4.  Your dedication to serving, be it in school, church ministry or dance

5. The way we can talk for hours and still can go on and on

6. Your willingness to trust God, even in the most trying situations

7.  You are really thoughtful and sensitive to people

8. That you’re child-like and not childish

9. That your heart is always out to take care of others, most of the time sacrificing your own welfare

10. The silly things you say that makes me laugh

11. That God has made you beautiful

12. I like you just the way you are, unadulterated

& the list goes on….

You’re this, & you’re that

Ever since you stepped into my life, it unknowingly transformed my life into a roller-coaster of adventure.

Just like a thief, you crept in without disturbing the balance.

You’ve hidden yourself amongst the foliage and settled yourself as a permanent resident.

My heart welcomes you and delights in your presence.

I behave like a child, delirious at the sight of candy.

Yet you hold the power to make the heart ache with casual words.

Is this love? I ask myself.

Even the greatest of heroes cringe at this question.

Give me a chance to prove that this is true.

Lets grow as friends cause my heart seeks out it’s soul mate. A gentle voice which resonates to its calling, and understand what every beat means.

Lest I give up, lest I walk away.

Let God, time and men be witnesses of my words.

To you,

I dedicate this to.

What is love?

From God’s words:

1 Corinthians 13

Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

Proverbs 30

“There are three things that are too amazing for me,
four that I do not understand:

the way of an eagle in the sky,
the way of a snake on a rock,
the way of a ship on the high seas,
and the way of a man with a maiden

John 15:13

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

Ephesians 5

Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her, to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word,  and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless.  In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself.  After all, no one ever hated his own body, but he feeds and cares for it, just as Christ does the church—  for we are members of his body.  “For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh.” This is a profound mystery—but I am talking about Christ and the church.  However, each one of you also must love his wife as he loves himself, and the wife must respect her husband.

These are profound words from the bible. Verses I have come to know.

I’ve asked myself this question many times. What is love? How do I express it?

Recently, I had a revelation. I should be prepared to lay down my life just as Christ laid His on the cross. I realized that all these while I had been “playing safe”. I told myself that I need to know if the girl is interested in me before I start to pursue her. I’m mostly interested in her beauty, and what she can offer me.

Selfish aint it? I can jolly well blame it on my defense mechanism kicking in, or humbly admit that I need a change of heart. Yes, my past failed relationship has etched a scar.

I need courage, to move on from failures. The shadow of fear, cast upon the possibilities of rejection is only human.

I will choose to move in the supernatural, to be a braveheart. FIGHT ON! for the most precious gift from God is a fair maiden’s heart. Just like a fairytale, I will brave the tallest castle, travel unchartered paths and battle the fiercest dragon, to rescue you and have a happily ever after.

Dance to the freedom I know

Dance is like an elusive butterfly.

And I’m the enthusiast who chases and tries to catch it.

My heart soars when I dance.

I know I’m nowhere near a good dancer now,

but just you wait.

I’d catch you someday, butterfly.

Jason & Jeanine – If it kills me by Jason Mraz

Welcome to TAIWAN!

Welcome to Taiwan! It’s my first visit to Taiwan in my 21 years of life! It’s going to be a 7 days tour package. A Christmas spent overseas!

I’d miss everyone back in Singapore. Fear not, it’s only 7 days!

I’d be back with SUN(tai yang bing) biscuits, souvenirs and hopefully, some dance clothings!

Till then! =)

Mummy-fied me.

                               

Me in my Grave clothes

This is me in my current state. I feel like I’m stuck in miry clay, the more I struggle, the deeper I sink.

To many this may be trivial, but I’m struggling and feel like I’m fighting for a lost cause.

I really don’t want to be a dead man walking. Even if I glow on the outside, sin is gnawing in the inside of me.

Please keep me in prayers. No more double standards, living double lives.

I miss dance like crazy.

Doctor woes

Why?

Doctors nowadays really appear so fucked up. Sorry, thats the most apt description I can find. I mean, I’m here for help, for advice. All you can say is sorry? I can’t be of much help and want to walk out on me hastily? And close my case? Wtf.

& my physiotherapist too. (I can’t be bothered to type the story here. But yea you get my point)

At least show some care la. Why so mercenary?  I’m still your patient right?

Sighs. My future is uncertain again. The only sliver lining is the fact that he told me my spine will take years to recover and I hope I wont get up-pes.

God please see me through this storm. I’m tired from worrying, tired from being frustrated and worn out.

Negative thoughts, go away

This blog is has become an avenue where I thrash my thoughts cos I don’t think many people suscribe to it anyway.

Lol.

Sometimes I really feel unwanted. The phrase 无事不蹬三宝店 is so apt. People don’t think of you when you’re not of use. When they knock at your doorstep, you know something is required out of you.

I really really really don’t want to feel this way.

Take for example. I have 2 best friends but they seem to be so preoccupied at times that I’m just “discarded” at the back of their heads. Come on, dropping me a text or giving me a ring takes only 5 minutes at most.

Then I try to take initiative. Gets rejected most of the time due to their schedule. Ayah, this is perplexing.

Dear God, I am angsty. Why do they matter to me? should I put less importance on them? Are friends just people who have fun with you? Where are the promises? Do they fade with time?

Im really getting cynical. Its growing with age. I used to reject what my parents said. Friends are temporary. They wouldnt last. Is that true God?

Who understands me? I dont really confide these feelings cos I’d feel vulnerable and open, and I need to feel absolutely protected when I share.

I long to feel wanted, feel loved, feel that I’m of help, feel that Im important.

Why? beneath the happy, hopeful self is an empty shell of what used to be.

Please, If you are there oh Lord, answer my cries, and give me an answer to all these. Satisfy my longings and make me whole again.

Turbulence

WHY?

Am I in this situation again? When all is calm and placid, I can feel a storm starting to stir in my heart again.

I hate changes, especially being uprooted from a place where I’ve settled down.

This is unnerving, and I’m having a nervous breakdown.

Please Lord, I need peace. I need a sense of security.

November 18th is my next pes status review. With this uncertainty, thoughts and possibilities are rampaging through my mind. Grr.

How can I learn to depend on God on this? Why cant I trust God implicitly? I’m still in the process of recovering, from the trauma of the bastards in seletar camp and the injury I sustained.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

Send me someone to comfort me. I need an angel.

On a brighter note, I’m receiving positive comments that I’ve improved in dance. =) This is the only cheery thought I habour now. sighs